the Ruby urge to call the person i love habibi ,to randomly text u in the middle of the night out of no where ,to write down every thought i think of in a journal ,to pet every animal i see n talk to them cz they make me less alone, to give more than recieve to love ppl in ways they wont return becoz every1 deserves to be loved,to have so much love inside of me to the point that it hurts,to heal ppls inner child ,to tell ppl im proud of them ,to take a pic of pwetty flowers n clouds n pick up every flower n tuck it behind my ear, 2 smile at every1 cz what if theyre having a bad day, to hug ppl i feel safe w ,to find little safe spaces like tiny cafes, old warm bookstores,corners, to let n allow myself to cry cz its the only way i can get it off my chest n thats okey,to forgive n heal my inner child n give myself the childhood innocence i never recieved ,to get ppl random lil gifts, to to drink coffe while i write and isolate ,to keep everything everyone gives for any reasons in my memory box cz i value em sm ,to name my plants ,to wish upon a star, to believe every star is a soul. to collect candles to light on the nights im aching w loneliness to remind yourself of the light, & that it will be back,to write so many poems for no reason n barely show it to anyone